well

this weekend i went to a going away/late b-day party for ashely. before we werent the best of friends but now we're ok and its awesome. i stuffed myself with marshmallows, played army with maggie and chatted with kaiti's parents. there was a bunch of people there, although most of them i wsnt well acqainted with so at first it was kinda uncomfortable...but i did get to socialize a little bit with bonnie, and after they left we partied like it was 1999. i didnt sleep the whole time...i thing that was the first time i stayed up for over 27 hours and had fun. all and all it was great but now im kinda lovesick...:P. well i cant wait to go to the millport fair, tami's gonna have a party and i dont have a doubt that ill be able to go cause she's providing the transportation ;}. i went swimming earlier, i have accumulated skullcap and its all dry and ready and i cant wait, i should be practicing, im utterly confused about my religous things so if someone is kind enough to talk about it it would make me feel so good, im getting off topic and used two smileys in one post which is a record but im gonna break it cause i got my period ;D. yeah i feel bipolar right now...well i think the cause for all my recent depression and such is cause i think im losing my faith, and its just making me so incredibly said...i wish there was someone who took religion seriously enough and that was nice that i could talk to...thats why im putting it here. cause i loves my blogg so much and its like talking to some one and its better than writting cause ill just go on a rampage some night and throw it out but im not about to throw out the computer so this is really handy and apart from the occasional high keeps me from going insane or something close to it. whew. i truly feel better now. you should try going on like this...it makes one feel good for some reason.

oh gosh

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?Hot air for a cool breeze?Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,Running over the same old ground.
What have you found? The same old fears.Wish you were here.

i just listened to that, and i think i understand it thoroughly. it made me get all emotional and made me wanna cry, but then i saw a advertisement on google that involved the word ecstasy. emily's outside mowing and being helpfull and im just sitting here being lazy. i should go outside and do something. in a bit. well yesterday was just the shiz. speaking of shiz, i came up with a new saying while munching cashews. 'this is the shit and a can of chashews'...get it? instead of bag of chips its can of chashews. well im currently talking to the sexiest woman on the earth, and the 2nd sexiest just logged on so im gona go now. ;>

mealies! and ice-cream!

a month or two ago, my darkling beetles laid eggs. i did not think they would hatch for some reason, but they did. they are so incredibly precious. yesterday i had three medium ice creams and one large. it was sauwesome.

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well i re-did the test thing at the top. i feel it is alot more accurate now, so if you dont know anything about me for some reason, that might help ;). ill just re-write yesterdays post. on the nineteenth sara is having a party, and i cant wait to go cause ive been feeling quite glum and nina always loves on me. yap thats all i really said yesterday but it upset me that it didnt get posted so i decided to post it again just to spite blogger and their post dissapearing ways. well i made 'sketti and it is absolutely divine. its al-dante and then some. ok nothing else really to say except I LOVE YOU ;)