hooray for boobies

yesterday we went shopping and i got actually bras that make my boobies look they exist. its awesome. cause the other ones werent even bras...they had no support. but they were soooo comfey. so i call my new ones my boobies. so if anyone heres me say 'i got boobies!', i didnt get plastic surgery...just bras.
anyways. on to the thoughts
theres alot on my mind; i want to say so much, and i want to say it to kyle, cause thats what he's there for...but i sound crazy and i dont want him to think that and i dont think he would understand me. i mean he would try, but...its just beyond him i think. i mean beyond his understanding. ok that sounded really mean. but some people have different levels or modes or ways or SOMETHING of thought, and ours are just so different...but i love him lots so dont think im trying to sound mean. this makes me feel like 10 times more lonely than i already am and i want to see him really bad but GR i cant. we're just a pathetic mess. but hey thats what phones and school are for. but...as i think about it, now i cant love on all the people that i used to...and i love me some lovins. haha we're the typical teenage story. but then again i dont care cause im so lonely, and he's so lovey and eee.
on to another topic.
emily'sbeenmeanfornoreasonanditrytobereallyniceasicanwhilestilltryingtostickupformyselfbutshesnotusedtoitsoshethinksimtryingtobenegativebut im not im reallynot and it makes me soo incredibly depressed cause i love her so incredibly much but when she acts like that its like a slap in the face...
nother topic-
cant wait for school. not really. maybe. i cant wait for the friends but i can wait for all the negativity.
there are other things i want to talk about, but i dont have them ready in my head so ill just wait till later.
final note-
i really do love everybody very much, i just have a hard time with showing it and dealing with bad reactions and such.
good night!