you may have noticed the absence of a title...thats because i dont love max much anymore and i cant think of another one at the moment.
well i got back from the game about a half hour ago, and it was awesome. i just wish everyone wasnt so cold. i also wish i could have brought like 10 more blankets so i could warm up everyone who wanted one. i tried to offer gloves and gator to people though..so at least i tried. but other than the weather it was awesome and im sad its the last one...
ARGH grades arent going so well for me..i raised the english but the bio went down.
ARGH-2 i cant get her off my mind...
anyways. i need more music selection; i need money so i can get one of those online things or something...then smore money so i can get an mp3 player. i also need a filter for the aquarium, to shave my pits, some nachos & salsa, more roms, to find my bat lights so i can decorate even more for hallows eve, a life, another earing (4g! im so happy...i may reach my goal :3), and thats all i can think of.
AG im still worried about school. thats what i need-- more hair loss. ell well its not like i have a shortage.
well goodnight! sleeptight!

havent been here in a while

i need a miracle pill that will get rid of my stresses and worries and a.d.d, and i'll know everything thats in it. that would be awesome. homecoming awesome too. im pretty sad lately...but happy too of course. so i shouldnt complain. my hands are dry, so are my legs. i wish they werent. it would be nice if they always were...cause my hands sweat too much and yeah im rambling. i dont want creation to look at my blog so i decided instead to put all of the awesome links i have here on the myspace. except the other bloggers cause i dont know if they would appreciate that. sorry to ruin the fun but i gotta cut this short. beautysleep.

well

nothing much to say...things are good. everything thing seems fine, except in one area, which has me utterly confused and such. but im not worrying about it cause my situation is good, im just worried about what it could be and how i could change it and other things. im glad. although im still failing english ...that deserves a sad face :(.

AAGGG if i am not already mad it is most certainly not mercy

i think...as soon as i have enough money and am old enough i am moving to the remotest place in southern continental u.s and buying two hundred acres and becoming a recluse. yep. i want to do what i do any other time but this would be the last major; ill just turn my back on my problems and pretend they never existed. the world will go on and ill go back into decadence..ill have the sky to myself, ill be able to think, and maybe ill go insane so ill forget about humanity and how soory they are. life with it just doesnt seem good to me..ill forget about all those whom i cant love, and even if i dont..ill live.
but if i do that the love would gnaw and gnaw until i became so guilt ridden id have to show up again, only to find the world has gone beyond forgetting me and/or has left or died. ill live beyond thirty; everything will be wasted, and anybody who remembers me will want nothing to do with.

so ill be crushed again. the puree that is my heart will be shoved back into the garbage disposal.


maybe things do go in cycles..or maybe the fates are serious when it comes to what they do

some things to think about. i believe now that you cant escape 'fate', so dont try to or you'll end up like me.

painkillers

yesterday there was alot of mone spent on me...both my own and the parents'. i feel quite bad about it, but hey. its not like its a bad thing getting some new clothes and such.
since i wasnt there, josh and jake were left by themselves...to cook...scary. well the chicken looks edible so im impressed. mrs. a expects alot from me since josh and jake dont even know what bisquick is, so it makes me incredibly nervous in that class...but it makes me feel kinda good too, cause i like make sure they dont mess up and stuff. its...cool.
ooo and today madel gave me a bunch of filler paper. it made me feel so incredibly warm and fuzzy.
i got a new earing, a new cd and shoes yesterday. haha when i went up to the cashier to ask how much the earing costed, i could not stop stuttering. it was extremely embarassing then, but now i find it pretty funny.
oh god i just read something. i think ill stop here before i get all emotional on blog. i wish i could talk though..