infatuation at its worst

the trip was o.k. i neither enjoyed it nor disliked it. "nothing more to tell" -ozzy from sabbath bloody sabbath (im listening to it right now ;).
thats (one of) the problem though; i dont care about anything lately. i just feel completely blank about everything. it horrible. i dont even want to read much anymore. that and that other little emotion that i have no idea what it is...which in itself bothers me. i think that i cant wait untill this little thing is over, but i dont care enough about it somehow to know. ugh its to confusing...i need to think about and figure exactly what it is (besides depression, thats exactly what it seems like but im not sure) that is up.
well right now seeing as i dont care much about physics (AAGH), i want to major in music and minor in either math or cuisine...or both. i also want some business thing cause of how bad i want a hotel in louisianna, but unfortunately becuase of my current predicament. i cant figure out what i want to do in the future cause my mind doesnt seem to care. i do but it doesnt so i wont think about it. rather frustrating, and kinda confusing.
well thats all i have to say for now.
toodles