we can leave your friends behind (i like this post...letting people know how its going. dont worry its not sappy or sad or anything bleh like that)

all i have to say is
i've been feeling so good lately. whether its a coincidence with that i am feeling loved by someone other than family for like..the first time (its quite blissfull) is for others to judge...i dont judge :). all my other emotions and issues and tissues are still unthankfully there...its just that on top of it all, i just feel so incredibly high all the time. i feel so elated most of the time, yet extremely light-headed and tizzy and i constantly forget you-name-it...its like theres a tumor in my brain, but somehow i dont care. cause i enoi dreaming...especially good dreams. but like all dreams i have, i've reallized the end for this one..but try not to think of it, except when i stop and collect my thoughts after i've figured out what the hell it is i'm doing and hope and pray that he won't move...ell well. i'm sure people with weaker constitutions than me (which is saying something) have been through alot worse.
although thats in the future so i dont even know if it will happen.
back to the mindless bliss.
oo everythings just so dreamy and floaty and i've been laughing and smiling so much more.
though...like at school when theres all those people around, i get incredibly confused and lost in my head and more than once have i almost passed out and/or hypervenillated...so if you see one or two people already bugging me, even if you're intentions are good, resist the urge to say hey. it would be appreciated, especially since i'm too much of a pussy to tell my peers that cause they'll most likely get upset with me.
spnx!!!